My next step is identifying childhood hurts and how they play out in my life now. I can think of one already—Dad used to tease me until I cried and then offer me comfort. Give me a big cuddle and say sorry to make up for it. That has caused me to be overly sensitive to my husband teasing me. What I have to learn to determine is what is the real extent of the teasing from him. (It’s not often). Do his actions warrant my reaction? That’s one thing to start looking at.
Another general thing, which I have to unravel more is that I feel like no one’s looking after me. Like my needs aren’t being met. I need to unravel some specific situations where that feels like a big deal and work out if it’s an over reaction on my part or if I need to address a situation.
I do feel like I’m making progress. A great weight is lifted off me. I think it comes from facing myself. I think that’s part of accepting yourself.